(3:04 GN) Mubarak Kareem
Another day another dolla. You know, resisting food isn't that hard, but resisting the habits that will lead upto eating food or drinking water really sux bruh. I should refrain from complaining and purify my speech, as it takes away from the fast. I have to be not critical, but steadfast in my approach to my speech and my actions. I think with this Ramadan, it feels like I was pushed a bit more, rather than transitioned into it. And all of it is because of me, so I can't really blame others. However, seeing how I tried to glow down for as long as possible until this point, it actually kinda feels foreign. Like it feels like something that I have not yet integrated into myself yet. It's because I've held off on self-improvement for so long that coming back in is almost like being in a new body. I don't know if that effects the hormones in a negative way, but if it doesn't, radical change is good if the change is for good. And it doesn't make people slack off. Either you transition slowly, or you replace quickly. Those are the two options. I also meditate during the hours to pass time, as well as try to listen to my body. I either do silent meditation, or I do vibrational meditation for deeper observation of my body's resonant frequency. But it's not structured except for the prayers. My goal also is to lose as much weight as possible, but I gotta not waste food so I'm eating all the carbs before entering ketosis. But yeah that's been my life. I'm also trying to increase my discipline, but also try to figure what is good and what is bad for me. I mean, the major bad habits are under control for now, it's just doomscrolling is my way of escapism. That's an observation at least.